Let me tell you a story.
For my firstborn, I thought it would be nice to have a son. Of course I wanted to have a girl too eventually, but I was hoping that my eldest would be a boy so that his younger siblings can have a big brother to look out for them. I just thought it would be good and ideal.
But God had other plans.
He blessed us with a daughter and life has been nothing but good. I was so happy and grateful for Audrey. Having a daughter was truly wonderful and sweet in every way.
When my second pregnancy was confirmed, I thought it would be nice to have a son - so we could have one of each. But again, God blessed us with a daughter. And let me tell you, I wouldn't have had it any other way.
I say this because every day that I see my two girls together - I am thankful. They way they play and laugh together makes me smile - even in the late hours of the night or the wee hours of the morning when I remember how the day has been like (yes, this mama still thinks about her girls after a long day with them and after they're asleep). I just love the way they are towards each other. The silly laughter and girly giggles echo in my head and I can't help but laugh too. The way they play with their baby dolls are so adorable. They put them in mini strollers and push them around, sometimes racing and then bursting into shrieks and fits of laughter. And with matching doctor's kits they give them check ups too. I even volunteer to be their patient just to get in on the fun ;)
I love watching them play pretend whether it be a tea party, picnic, camping, or princess and fairies. And during those times when they do fight and I have to help make things better - my heart just melts whenever they make up with a hug, a kiss or a squeal of delight. Suddenly all is well just like that.
Maybe some wouldn't share my appreciation for having two girls. But my eyes have seen why having two of them are so precious. So special. It's a sisterly bond that I can't quite describe. It's just heartwarming.
I've always said this to expecting friends who have their preferences for gender - that God will always give you the perfect one for you. Even if it isn't the one you were expecting or hoping for. Because God knows best. He knows you better than you know yourself. He knows what will warm your heart. He knows what will make you smile, day and night. Whether it be girls, or boys, or a combination of both - He knows what will work with His grand plan for your life.
And as for me, I am just over and beyond grateful. Because I love what I have. I love what He has given me. And I want to enjoy this blessing to the full. :)
To my little girls Audrey and Natalie - you always inspire me and make me laugh.
I am truly blessed to be your mama :)