Without a helper for about 7 days now, I had an epiphany- I didn't realize I've become such a pack rat.
I also didn't realize that mess and disorder was staring me in the face and I hadn't really noticed. I just got numb to it due to the busyness of my life.
Whatever happened to the clean and orderly household that I used to have after we renovated and before Audrey came?
And no, I'm not gonna blame the chaotic state of my house to my kids. Keeping it orderly is ultimately my job (I was merely wondering haha!). They may contribute to the mess but I need to see to it that no matter how messed up it gets, I make sure that it gets cleaned up whether by having them pack away, telling the housekeeper to clean up what they can't or putting them away myself. And as for the piles of things that slowly sneak up on me? Well it's time to get rid of what is no longer needed.
I just can't believe that I allowed us to accumulate so much stuff. I have clothes from a decade ago still hanging in my closet. And just because it fits again doesn't mean I should keep it- I tend to buy more classic than trendy clothes so you wouldn't really notice they've been around for a while. But I ask myself, why do I keep it anyway when I do buy new ones from time to time? Yes. Let. It. Go.
My husband says my sentimental nature is getting in the way of disposing stuff effectively. Ugh, I hate to admit it but it's true. It's time for me to sort things out and keep only what is necessary, valuable, and useful. And anything I haven't used for a year needs to go.
So my goal for the next couple of weeks is to dispose of things I no longer need and give away what others might find useful. I need to make more space in my home. Most importantly, I need to show my girls the proper way to maintain a home. I want them to uphold good standards when managing a household and know first hand how to keep it clean and orderly. I don't want them to be pack rats and accumulate things that will only gather dust. I also want them to know when to give away things that they no longer need to someone who might have a need for it.
This whole realization has made me aware of what I need to change and to pay attention to. I just can't be complacent about it. After all, an orderly home is a relaxing home. I bet you're thinking, "Wow her house must be so messy!" Haha! Well it is- in certain areas like my workstation, the storage room (where we can't seem to store anymore stuff in), part of our lanai, part of our bedroom. And yes, mostly just parts. But these parts make up a whole. And when it isn't orderly, the whole space appears messy. So it needs to be put in order.
I hope I can fix it all and soon. I know it is quite a challenge but I know that if I do it one day at a time, one step at a time, clean up one shelf at a time, then I will eventually meet my goal. I can't wait to have more space and have a neater household again. And I hope I will never again get numb or blind to the mess around me. I want my eyes to see what it needs to see, whether busy or not busy.